I love Sundays. I wish it still was. They called me into work yesterday afternoon which was fine, I love my job. So many babies on the unit right now, it's crazy. Scary that babies are getting cancer now. Their prognosis is generally poor in infancy. There is a 7 day old baby in the NICU with infantile leukemia. Such a sin. Two of my patients are dying right now and sadly I'm not sure all the prayers in the world are enough to save them. I still pray.

I'm listening to Christmas music right now! A little early I know, but it makes me smile. I started my xmas shopping early and have gotten a little done which is nice. Linz is going to be with Michael's family this year which is too bad, but at least we'll all be together for Thanksgiving. Jon is staying with my family for Thanksgiving break :) I'm excited....it's our first holiday that we are celebrating together with my family. I love him.

I want to do something special for my patients for the holidays, but I really don't know what to do. I was contemplating organizing a secret santa type of thing but I don't know. I also thought it would be nice to get the kids little christmas trees for their room, but they would have to be fake for neutropenic precautions. Maybe I'll do something crafty. I need to go to Michaels and get some inspiration. I love my kids at CHOP and have been thinking about this for awhile. I just wish I could come up with something...

I went to church with Jon and Margo this morning. Shaina decided to grace us with her presence (which I could have done without). I don't know why she hates me. She liked my boyfriend and he chose me...like 7 months ago and she HAS a boyfriend now. You would think she'd be over it, but shes just so rude towards me. Girls are strange. She's this super Catholic 25ish year old chicky who is ultra conservative and nosey. She took it upon herself to contact Jon over the summer (when he was in Seattle) to let him know I brought a guy back to my apartment one night. What she didnt know was that it was my good friend (who Jon also knows!) and we were going back to study so he could quiz me for my exam the next day. AND ITS NONE OF HER FUCKING BUSINESS! Since then she has decided to be my little stalker and let him know of anything else I do that appears to be shadey. Rediculous. So girlfriend showed up and walked with us to church, saying not a word to me the entire 3 hours we were together today. All I have to say is how DARE you insinuate that I'm a slut when you are the one wearing knee high hooker boots to church hahaha. You have to laugh it off I suppose. Some people are so strange. I find that the ones who insist on digging into your private life are the ones who lack one of their own to keep them occupied.

it got cold in philly. and i love it because it feels more like home. i've lived here for a little over 2 years and i think i'm ready for a change of scenery. i cross my fingers jon gets into medschool elsewhere....as in seattle or portland! i want to explore a new city and meet new people. i've been bumping into old friends and ex boyfriends lately (nate, ryan, meg etc.) and it makes me uneasy. i want a new start away from the craziness of philly. people are so rude here. i grew up in new england, where everyone knew everyone and if you didnt you introduced yourself and maybe went out to coffee. and then perhaps realized that your parents grew up together. certainly not the case here. people are rude, homeless, and constantly laying on their horn in busy intersections. it's foreign to me.

I am 22.
I am graduating nursing school in the spring.
I am in love.
I am left-handed.
I work with kids who have cancer.
I am a runner.
I love country music.